Just Thoughts

It's 1:24 am as I start writing this and I am writing only because I thought of something when I saw someone else's quote on his nickname. Now, I really don't know If this is something I came up with or if it is something that i saw somewhere and it came to my mind right now, but this is what I thought:

Live the present time wholly and fully, because the past does not belong to you and the future becomes the present so quickly that you have no time to grasp it.

Anyway, I'm off.
Hope you people like that whether it's mine or not.

Black Tide - Shockwave

The Epilogue of a Beauty

The beauty know to men as Kakita Kaoru arrived at Kyuden Toketsu after all the trials that Lady Sun made her, and her comrades, face that day. She had to watch 2 of her companions die and another one commit Sepukku; Hida was an annoyance, but he was a good man.
She kept her katana for safekeeping and at her arrival she requested for another stand so she can put that katana to rest properly until she was able to return it to her fallen comrade family.
At night she began combing her hair when she suddenly heard a great deal of noise coming form the nearby rooms. She was suspicious of foul magic inside the castle, and the noises startled her.
Swift as the wind she reached for her katana as she heard running steps coming close to her room, she turned to the door unsheathing her blade just in time to see the sliding door open in one smooth motion; what she saw was a towering naked man... Surprised as she was, the only thing that could scape her mouth was to call out the name of the naked man in front of her, her voice trembling with awe:

-Ekutoru??

... not again!

It so happens that people that you care about can: punch you, kick you, shoot you, stab you, hurt you, KILL YOU... but what really hurts, what really leaves you down on the floor with no hopes of ever coming back, is a disappointment.
Through time I have been disappointed over and over again while I try to be as best as I can and live up to be the best guy everyone can ask for; it's not easy, and sometimes I just don't fucking care about anything else but me, but to be honest I get little complain... actually so little that I could say that I get no complains, but I don't want to brag. I only ask one thing in return: why can't those that know that can bring me down, like I just said I have been brought down, behave? Is it really so hard??

Why do I even bother??

Metallica
Until Sleeps

Past, Present, Future.

There are several novels and a role playing game that is based on a fictional world named Kryn (DragonLance in case you have not figured out by now), and there lived Raistlin Majere (lets just call him Raist), the most kick ass guy ever. This all powerful mage had but one flaw, and that flaw was what made him so powerful: He was the Master of Past and Present! In the future Past, a wizards named Fistandantilus sent his essence into the future and possessed Raistlin, which gave Rasit the the ability to develop a power beyond imagination.
Later, Rasit traveled in time and took on Fistandantilus and absorbed him while he was still alive! It was like being two times a powerful as you can be! But with all that power and shit he still could not escape his past. Since he became Fistandantilus, he became destined to die and go forth in time to fin himself (Raist) and be lock in a never ending circle.

Why am I telling you this? To see what happens when you stop living for today while thinking about the future and start living in the past and thinking that the past is the answer to your problems and the root of your curses.
See the past is just that: PAST... you can't do shit about it because, unless you have a time machine (in which case you'll have to let me borrow it, I wanna meet hide), you CAN'T change your past! The only thing you can do with that is learn from it. Period.
On the other hand you have the present, that thing which you are living now. You can screw the present big time if you decide to live in the past, because the past it's a bitch... it wont let you go.
Then we have the future... all we can do about that is get ready for it learning from the past, the hard part is that no one knows what awaits us in the future, unless you have a time machine (in which case you'll have to let me borrow it; I wanna know who wins the Euro2008 and then make some bets).

Bottom line is: you have to own you past, you can't let your past own you. It's the same thing with money: when you own money, you are wealthy; when money owns you, then you are just greedy and that sucks.

Thank you Heavy Metal.

This is a post in which I will show you how is it that heavy metal makes our lives better.
Here is the Japanese opening of a well knonw tv show: Mazinger Z or Tranzor Z in North America... Why do you have to go and screw up such a cool name like Mazinger??? How do you name the Mazinkaiser, Tranzorkaiser?? Stupid.
Anyway here is the vid:


Now here is the same video, but this time the song is performed by Animetal, a Japanese Heavy Metal band wich makes covers out of Japanese tv shows


See?? I rest my case, Heavy Metal is not only good, it is a blessing.

Head Ache

I have a massive headache that's been killing me all day long... lack of sleep I guess, my mom wanted me to drive her someplace early in the morning and after being up and awake I could not go back to sleep when I got home.
The thing is that the last time I got a head ache like this was actually about a week ago. I had a system breakdown due to some heavy thinking and I was not able to go to bed until like 4 am or so, and then I had to wake up early because my dad needed some stuff done... so I had no like "no time to sleep"... I mean, I did have the time... I just couldn't and then I had to do some stuff, see?? But the is not the point, the point is the headache that I got that time...
I got a headache for being up late... doing what? Well I was thinking. I could have just overlooked the matter but I just couldn't. Why? Because it was about me facing one of my greatest fears.

I once saw a movie in which one of the character said: "A man who fears nothing is a man who loves nothing...". Well there you go, I once was fearless because I had nothing to lose. Today I do have something to lose, and to lose that would be losing the most important thing in my life and the greatest thing that have ever happened! So I'm afraid, so to speak... but I don't want to be afraid; to live in fear is worst than fear itself in my opinion, and long ago I decided not to be afraid in life so that I could live it fully.
But the guy from the movie also said "... and what joy there is in life for a man that loves nothing??". So there you go, I once was bitter and I don't wanna go back to that...

What to do? I decided to live my life not with fear but with caution, and in order to do that I will need to face every fear that I might have. It is the hard way, I know... It would be easier to just turn my back and walk away from that but then I wouldn't be happy.
So I'm taking the hard way and by doing that I know that I will make several heads to ache, starting with mine, but it's the path I've chosen and I need this in order to feel in peace with me... So what I'm trying to say is that, if one day I give any of you a headache because of my silly way of living life please forgive me; and if I have already gave anyone such a headache I am really sorry... It has never been my intention to hurt anyone.
Now, despite my headache, I am going to read one of those new books I've got waiting.

Lyrics?
Nah... I'll start a new tradition. From now on it's gonna be videos at the end of my posts.
Anthem - Immortal Bind

Ten Years....

... since his death.
Today, more than usual, we remember.


This was taken on May the 1st of 1998, the day before he died.

Well....

Well, this will speak for itself... Keep in mind that this footage was taken on March 28, 2008...

The song is Rusty Nail.

Finally they are back!
One thing thoug... Heath... quit it with the outfit man!! You look like you are trying to fill in hide's shoes, seriously! Quit it man, unless you are like paying homenage or something.
Here are some more vids.

Kurenai


Weekend


Without You - New song

Diaries of Vengance II

It is done... BEHOLD!!!
By my doing Japan is under the shadow of the Serpent King! And what could not be crushed in his wake? He has even awakened my ancestry Essence and now my skills have gone were I've onbly imagined they would go and still I can hardly look at him in the eye... such power... such a terrible figure... Soon the land will be no more! And when the body of poor Xiaoyi collapses, and collapse it will!, I'll be moving on to claim the prize Da Ji should have had.
I have let go of my former name and taken the name of my ancestor, soon China will fear the name Da Ji once more.

Time for you to meet.....

Anthem

Anthem (アンセム) were one of a handful of Japanese Heavy Metal band formed in 1980 in Tokyo, they were called "The Tokyo Metal Machine". Their music is very similar in style to countrymen Loudness and Earthshaker. Disbanded since 1992, the group reformed in 2000 and released the album Heavy Metal Anthem, a reworking of some older Anthem tunes now featuring noted vocalist Graham Bonnet. Since then, original vocalist Eizo Sakamoto (who hadn't sung with the band since 1987 because he started up the band Animetal which performed heavy metal covers of anime and tokusatsu (science fiction shows like Ultraman) opening and closing themes. He also was involved with the anison "supergroup" JAM Project before reuniting with Anthem) has returned to the group.

Present members:

• vocals - Eizo Sakamoto
  
• electric guitar - Akio Shimizu
  
• leader/bass guitar - Naoto Shibata
  
• drums - Hirotsugu Homma
  

Venom Strike

This was shot in 1992 and it doesn't get much more metalish than this

The Voices


Onslaught

20th aniversary tour. The song starts at 3:52

Words from The Lightings

-I think my clan is best suited to rule the Empire, our diplomats are the best in the land; in fact Yasuki-sama has done such a great job that he should be named Emperor... but that cannot be done, we all know it too well.
Although I stand firm in saying that my clan is the best suited, I know that it must not happen, for we have a great flaw: pride and arrogance. That pride would lead to opression and that arrogance would lead to war. I want the Yasuki lands for my clan no less than any of my clanmates, they are ours by right, but I don't want to see the Imperial Army marching there once the Crab refuse to hand them over

-I know how you feel old friend, nothing would please me more than one own in the throne... but it's unlikely to happen. People don't trust us, and it's our fault; how does my daimyo deals with one that has angered him? He makes him disapear... I don't mean "he kills him", dying, I think, would be a much more desirable fate. Belive me when I say that I don't want to be the one to make the Emperor disapear... my blood brother's fate stills haunts my sleep.

-The Emperor should and must rule with honor! He must be flawless, and following the bushido is the way of honor and through that one can truly be flawless... that's the teacing of my clan, but I just hope it would be truth, for in our pusuit of honor we would become corrupt in our cause and quest. The Scorpion and the Mantis ways would be unaceptable in the eyes of a Emperor such as the one we would become... but regardless, the Empire needs the Scorpion and the Mantis.

-I know many good people in all of our clans, people that rule marvelously within the little realms they are given and call "home", but power corrupts, and what is worse: there are those that would seek those in power to corrupt them... we have seen this, we all saw how the leaders of the Lotus used the hitokiri Shigeru as a puppet and almost unleashed a power too great for them to control. Yes power corrupts and if my clan ruled the study of elements would be top priority and the land would be left to be forgotten; eventually we would turn to the blood, in search for more knowledge.

-Our insight would fade from us, why? Because we would try to spread that insight... Our monasteries would fill the land and monks would be everywhere. We cannot, we must not, make our lands an example of spiritual rightgeousness nor an example of what the world should live and think like... that would not be "protecting"...

-By our constant war are your lands kept safe from the shadows. We have the right to rule for it is us who keep this Empire free of taint... but war is what we know and war is what we would give to the land. War against the Crane for taking the lands of the Yasuki; war against the Shadowland, something that would leave the Empire bankrupt and wasted; war against the Unicorn for dealing with the gaijin and war to the gaijin should they ever dare show their face arround here. We are warriors, not rulers.

The last of the Lightnings fell on the battle of the Naga Spirits, he dances with the fortunes as I write, but he would have said something like this:
-We are not interested in ruling although we'll do it if we must. I'd just hope our flaw wouldn't cast it's shadow on the land... our free spirits would leave or desert the Empire... and that's my fear.

Yeah Right!!

For all those readers who are not from my country, or who don't know yet, Venezuela changed their currency this year... The new currency is called Bolivar Fuerte...
STRONG MY ASS!! Look at what happens when you drop a one of the new coins:
Kindda makes you wonder about the whole "Un Bolivar fuerte, una economia fuerte, un pais fuerte" thing....

X Japan - I.V. Music Video

Here it is


Only one comment to add:
Heath, you suck EMO!! BRING BACK TAIJI!!!

Do you know what would be rude...?

... Not telling people you are here.... You don't get it? Let me put it this wasy:
Say that I go to Miami and stay there for 2 weeks, but I don't tell my cousin Mari that I was in Miami. Or that I go to Spain and not tell Sylvia about it... that would be rude, so rude that in some cultures it could be clasified as low.

Anyway, I'm just saying this to give somepeople something to think about... B-bye!

...Damn!

That's 3 nights in a row I've dreamt of her... and last night her lips were so crimson red that I wanted to rip them off with my teeth... it was VERY intense, the touch of her skin... I knew I was dreaming but what the hell...

........I'd give my right arm to be with her right now; I need her more than my arm anyways.

Diaries of Ignorance

Japan is bigger than what you may think!!
I've been here for like, what?, a month and a half?! I've seen so much in theese past few weeks, it's awesome, although Da Qui seems to be bothered by the fact that "we are taking too long"... She is constanly reminding me that we must reach Tokyo, that she has a "surprise" for me... but the land of the Samurai is beutifull and I want to see it all... unlike her, she is what you'd call a "stereotypical chinese", she hates Japan, it's people and it's history. Now that I think about it, I don't know why she agreed on comming with me =S
Anyway, we'll be in Tokyo by the end of this week, or maybe we'll stay the weekend here I don't know; maybe I'm being selfish and I'm not thinking about her, but it would be easier if I knew what kind of surprise expect us in Tokyo...

I just know I'm gonna love visiting the temples and the duel academies and all that... just the thought of the Great Lu Bu, or Cao Pi fighting the likes of Oda Nobunaga or Miyamoto Musashi... it's delightfull...

.... Da Qui's complainig suddenly changed my mood... I don't wanna write anymore... at least not for now.

17/12/2007

Happy Birthday Hon!!

Choccolate always huh?! Hope you like it....

No estoy conforme

Si, no lo pueden creer verdad? Estoy escribiendo en español, y saben por que? Por que a los que les interesa esto tienen el español como lengua madre.

No estoy conforme.
Para comenzar yo aun no me la creo, espere como media hora para despertar a mi mama, quien se habia acostado como a las 11, por que en verdad no lo creo aun... no puede ser tan facil.
No estoy conforme.
Por que? porque ese hombre aun esta libre y, ademas, de presidente. Mucha gente ha ido a la carcel de por vida por crimenes mas leves. Me cale TODO el proceso, desde que comenzaron con que iban a reformar la constitucion... y saben que? Esto no hubiese sido necesario si hubiesemos ganados hace un año... yo SE que ganamos, lo se. Que por cierto Hugo, eres tan absurdo y te rodeas de gente tan incompetetnte que te hiciste una constitucion PARA TI SOLITO cuando comenzaste a gobernar y ya la quieres cambiar.
No estoy conforme.
De verdad no creo que hayamos ganado con un 1% de diferencia. No puede ser que haya un 44% de abtencion. No puede ser que a mi papa lo hayan sacado convenientemente del registro electoral hace un par de dias.
No estoy conforme
Porque he votado, firmado, vuelto a votar y des todas las veces (4 o 5, no recuerdo bien) solo han hecho valer mi voto ESTA vez.

Ahora le gente empezara a beber creyendo que ganamos... que tal si les dicen mañana que van a hacer un proceso mas decisivo que el de la reforma constitucional y en ese si nos meten el huevo; y cuando digamos "Hubo trampa" ellos diran "Aqui las elecciones son transparentes! Las pasadas las gano la oposicion".

Quizas este hablando de mas debido al sueño que estoy aguantando desde las 9pm del dia Domingo, pero creo que un post mas sincero que este no sera facil de encontrar.

Lyrics? No viejo, tengo mucho sueño.

Bleach - Masked

It's been ages, but finally we got to playing again... we'll have to wait a long time before we can play again. This last section of the campaing was played separedly so I don't know what the fuck happened with Mirumoto-San (napo) and with Kaoru-San (Franklin).

... Remember we where living in Hueco Mundo with the Vaizards gang and they were helping us control the hollows inside of us. Our preparation took long and in that time I learned that Hyuga Tenkai, one of my cousins was exiled to earth by the Soul Society... the training was hard but we were ready, or so the vaizards thought. The day of the testing came, Kaoru-San satayed slackign and sleeping while Mirumoto-San and I went to take the test, I forced my way into being the first one to be tested... a contention spell was cast, to hold me, and then they made me enter a trance in with I had to face my dark side; she took away my zanpakutou, I was helpless... but she forgot that I was better than that... my pride wouldn't let me fall, I held on to it and I was able to get my sword back, this time my dark side was at a disadvantage... and she fell. When I came to I found out that about 30 minutes has passed and some of the Vaizards were hurt, Incluiding Mirumoto who told me that I owe him one... go figure. There was like a 10 minute break and the Mirumoto- San was up. The same spell was cast... and he was forced into the same trance; what happened in his mind, I don't know, but he began transforming into a hollow... firts it was just the mask, then the body began turning non-hummanoid... he grew legs, and his face was difigured. One by one the Vaizards fought against him, i also fought (using my new-found powers of course)... now I knew what he meant by "you owe me one" but lets just say that we are even now. As the time passed he became more mounstrous but suddenly, he exploded in a ball of raiatsu, and he was himself again. He managed to it quicker than me.
When we were resting Kaoru showed up.... she took the test, but she failed. I was taken away as our leader said that she should be killed. I mourned her for days, and kept her necklace as a memento.
Days went by and we had to do our chores... Mirumoto-San and I were sent to earth to pick up some things: hair gel, hentai manga, guitar strings... you know, stuff for our gang members. I told Mirumoto "... we should split so we finish quicker; I'll meet you here within an hour...". I got there and waited but he was super late so I left... when I got "home" everything was desolate and suddenly, out of nowhere a cero almost hit me! One of the Vaizards shove me away and that saved me... an army of hollows were attacking us... we manage to defend ourselves for a while, but there was no winning this finally I lost conscience and when I came too I was laying in some rudimentary bed mede with sheets on the floor and some old lady was taking care of me.
She told me her name was Akane, she healed me (it took like 2 weeks) and in that time we talked a lot; she was a Shinigami that had exiled herself from Soul Society very long ago, now she lived in the mountains of India... I told her of my goals, and she agreed to train me so I could get what I had sought ever since I saw Kucichi Byakuya for the first time... Ban Kai. For 400 years I lived with Akane-Sensei and I never saw her Ban Kai nor knew her last name, the only thing I knew about her Ban Kai was "As long as I held my zanpakutou, I will linger on this place" that's all she told me. With time she became like a mother, and not like my real mother too fed up with nobility to hug her child, she remind me of Kaoru's family... they were so close. Time took it's tool on her... on her last moments she talked to me and said that I was the only thing that made her happy in her exile, that being alone will kill you, that I shouln't let my pride let me end up alone... and she told me that the only thing that I was lacking to be compleate is in hell.
Before she died she told me her last name: Mirumototo (she is Genryusai's sister!!!) and to take her to a certain place once she was dead... and when I did I found her body in a cave... her hand had let go of her zanpakutou. I kept her zanpakutou sheet as a memento.

With my mind set on my goal, I met up with someone I have not seen in a long time, Hyuga Tenkai... I tracked him to the Oshu province of Japan. There I learned he had become a Vaizard himself, but he was not able to control the hollow inside of him. He was as powerfull as I was when I left Soul Society... I knew this because I tested him. In 2 days we tracked a hollow dark enough to be sent to Jigoku instead of being purified... Tankai-Chan killed him and when the doors to jigoku opened we steped in. We had to fought the usual welcome wagon, a HUGE skeleton guardian... piece of cake. We walked for a while and and then we forcefully interrogated some piece of crap devils that where hanging arround torturing souls... they told us that "the genearl would come"... "let him come I said" and he came... he tried to get rid of us using illutions; we both broke free and (since I don't know what tha fuck I am suposed to look for) told him we were looking for answers, he began fighting and said "one answer for every minute you survive"....
My Ban Kai was very usefull, I wasn't hit in the whole brawl. Not before long I got out of him that there was a shinigami trapped in Jigoku, but he died before I could get more info out of him; "why?" you ask? Because Tankai-Chan used his hollow to attack the general and lost control of it so I kept fighting him to buy him some time... I didn't wanted to kill him... I wanted to keep to what Akane-Sensei told me. Eventually he fell to the ground un-hollowized and almost spent... he wasn't able to gain control of his dark side.

Moments later we saw a warehouse, we went to it and opened it... inside was none other that Mirumoto-San!!! Aparently he's been there for 400 years!! And inside that warehouse he couldn't feel anything so he went kindda nuts... he even strangled me for a few seconds (I was about to engage him in combat actually). We were talking and were interrupted by 2 guys, one very tall and with big muscles and stuff, the other was not as strong, they were wearing some sort of armor made out of bones ... the not tall was claping saying stuff like "long time no see" and shit; I wasn't sure what he meant and he said something like "Don't you remember me? Shinigami?" and he took his helmet off... It was Tseng Pai, the quincy we have fought when we were shinigami... he had a "-3" written on his forehead... the tall one took his helmet of and he was Radetsu-San, Kaoru-San's older brother which we have killed when we couldn't control our hollows... He has a "-2" written on his fore head... they were telling us to go with them, I refused at first, but then came this woman wearing the same kind of armor and as she took her helmet of she said "You are as always... What about me Kazehime? Will you trust to follow me?"... It was Kaoru-San and she had a "-1" written on her forehead... I never let it show but I was about to crumble... and I started following her....


---The End---

We'll have to wait untill Tite Kubo finishes Bleach to play again.

Tittle: The one that will kill you...

... has a thousand faces.
He once was the average guy; not specificly tall, slim, no body marks, molds, scars... nothing. Theese days no one, not even him, knows what he'll look like untill it's time to go out and kill.
Those close to him say he sometimes looks punkish; with black clothes, ties, sunglases and pink dyed hair... other times he seems like a modern metal head, with leather pants, boots, a shirt with it's sleeves rolled up and shoulder lenght hair... the only feature he never changes its a tattoo on his right forearm "Chi desidera la morte finale?"

But if you manage to see through his disguise, and find fangs instead of teeth, claws instead of nails and wolf's eyes; know that it's too late for you.